Slamming closed the back of the U-Haul truck forced me to come to terms with what’s to come: I’m leaving everything I’ve known behind me. 

My parent’s house with the peeling paint on the side and the old dirt road that I spent years playing on would become only memories as I left for Durham.

As I drive through my hometown, with the old traffic light  on Main, I saw the library where I spent years reading books  at and where I repaid them by doing my Eagle Scout project  there. And the American Legion building too, where us scouts  would meet. Both now are landmarks of youth, and I drive past them one final time.

As I passed through more towns, I began to get nervous. Sure, most of it was from excitement for the future, but there also was the fears which were hiding. The what-ifs. “What if you struggle with class?”, “What if you get homesick?”, “What if you fail?”. The questions tried to grow into a massive mountain, which  I for sure thought the U-Haul wouldn’t be able to make it up.

And suddenly, I was there.

I was in Durham.

I was alone.

I was free.